yaaawn im feeling tired.. due to the lack of sleep last night. didnt manage to catch a show with hao ling todae cos she had sth on. so , she came over my house after her work instead to chill n we had pizza! quite nice to have sumone arnd. n she was there lying on my bed watching tv while i sat in front of my com chatting with a few, surf net and watch tv and chat with haoling. and then we talked abt how guys cant multitask. haha.
anyway, i feel kinda sad when i think of so many mean gers arnd.erm yah! u know who im refering to now rite?? haha. anyway, not jus her. but many many others. when toking to haoling , i mentioned a ger n she was saying tt ger tt i mentioned okay lets call her A , was nicknamed prostitude by this class of gers in jc. n i was so shocked.
how horrible can human beings get?? after confirmed tt we were toking abt the same ger, i felt so sad for A. she was a really nice , pleasant and sweet ger. and yet, shes called by another grp of gers" prostitute" when they dun even know her.
i used to wonder, does anyone ever think of themselves as evil? does anyone actually stop n think of their actions ? have u guys ever think tt wateva occur harmless to u actually cud have hurt sumone?
i shall not let this entry be cheerful entry. fr my inner soul, let me tell u wat results in this super cheerful me. ive cum across many ppl. who in one wae or another , make sumone else life miserable and they feel proud abt it. oh yes. i think jus like the movie mean gers. but they themselves do not notice tt they make the hell outta sumone.
yes. sum ppl said gossip is a leisure. but pls know ur limits. do not go arnd spreading not knowing the truth. it doesnt make u popular or any better tt u know the latest gossip. another friend of mine, B. yup a ger. it seems like gers have probs like this. why? well, what can i saE? they are jus being gers. (-_-)' tts why i love my own gang of gerfrens n guyfrens who are much more mature and erm heck care??
oh yah back to B. she's a legend. well known since young. heard lotsa bitchy stories abt her , tried not to listen when anyone was very excited abt telling why they dislike her. why? i wanna know her myself. having been thru all these childish acts, i know wat's it like for her. and so, thru coindence, i really get to know her. she was really nice n frenly to me. okay. sum may had bad experiences with her . sum stories may be true. but ever wonder tt a person can change??? why not give her a chance . who knows she's a better person now n yet due to gossip mongers , no one gives her a chance? n yes, it mite be she's just being nice to me but still mean to sum others? in tt case, do i have to be mean to her??? why waste ur time n effort hating a person u dun really know? shudnt we forgive n forget?
when i was in primary 6, i told myself i gotta stay low profile when i go sec sch. okay it failed. but hey. i din go arnd yelling hey!! im XIE MINGYAN!! i wan to be populaR!!! did i?? nope. i didn't. n so, when i entered JC, i told myself agn. low profile this time. n yes! i tot i finally achieved it. cos i knew no one at sch. attended the boring lectures with my long term bf. go to class with my long term fren, kg. time passed quickly n i was so glad JC gonna be over. okay sadly, me n my long term bf broke up. and then i realised there were lotsa rumours abt me. n tts when i realised oh.. im high profile agn??? gosh.... i tot i knew nobody.
kk. my fault agn??? all i did was wake up go sch... bell went off, im off to town or home to take a nap n the routine continued. nope. im not trying to sound pathetic or touch any of ur hearts. my pt is.. there are many ppl who wish to lead a peaceful n simple life. they din want to be popular or make to be popular like sum ppl do. please leave me alone. touch your heart and ask urself. what good have u done by spouting nonsence abt sumone u duno?? to get tt rock outta ur chest?? how situations manage to turn better when u yell back at ur parents?? does it solve the matter??? on the other hand, we hurt our parents when wat seems to be nth to u does matter n seriously hurt them very much.
i rmb once, i was so sick with life n was damn pissed with what my mom said. n so to get it off my chest , i said to her," i will jump off the building for u to see." she went back to her room quietly and i sat on my chair feeling real guilty and held my tears back. and the next dae, my aunt toked to me and reprimanded me. she said tt i hurt my mom badly n stuff n yes i was real guilty abt it even if i may not appear to be.
it's funny how one owas regret after doing sth instead of paying more attention n think abt what they have got to sae or do b4 finally putting them into action. even when cums to making decisions, there are times when we regret abt doing sth or regret not doing sth. n very often we cudnt turn back time. it's okay. it's okay to make mistakes. but make sure u do learn fr ur mistakes.
wateva tt i said is simple to understd. everyones knows tt we shud learn fr our mistakes. but , how many actually did put them into practice? n if everyone is aware of all of the principles of life, why are there still ppl who screw up their life? why aint life perfect and so full of happiess right?
was discussing abt tt with nic jus now and then i told him, if life is perfect n so fair, it wud be too predictable and wud no longer be interesting. and he asked, how can life be perfect in terms of how we can be filled with happiness. and i replied , it happens when we go to heaven. okay, u shud know where the conversation leads to.
wateva it is, happiness to an extent is within ur control. after braving thru so many storms, im one who sees a cup as half filled for sure. and im so glad tt many of my close pals see the same wae too. others' comments used to matter alot. but sumone said to me, the only words tt can hurt u are those tt cums out fr ur loved ones.
and to u christine, yes, i do heard abt 'ur closest pals can be ur worst enemies.' okay. So??? wat's ur point? so u have a prob with me n my close pals now?? strange isn't it? how sum ppl enter ur life and make comments tt suppose to make WOW but it sumhow doesnt go tt wae. and tts why these ppl cum n go. my close pals grew up with me. arguements tt we had, unpleasant encounters etc had all been buried. all i can rmb now is we had all forgiven each other for the wrong doings. and if not cos i have loved them so much, they wud not be able to hurt me.
we had cum such a long wae, almost turning 20 already. i looked back all these yrs, it really felt like ive finally overcum the greatest hurdle. i know more challenges are cumming my way, but im no longer afraid. wat life is it if it's one without Ups n Downs? how wud we notice how nice n kind sum ppl can be without having sum mean ppl arnd?
well, this is life. and we are all leading our lives in different ways. and fr tt "dae" onwards, ive nv use "ending my life" outta anger. and have been very cautious with my words when speaking to my parents for im afraid tt they might end theirs as an easy wae out. we all given one life each. go figure how u wud like to lead urs.
wooo. it's 1.30am now. time to orh orh!! gd night! =P
oh u know what!? while i was waiting for Hl todae, i went down the escalator in PS with TOro fr energy and fiona xie standing right in front of me. hey wait a min! b4 the rumour mongers set out to sell their stories agn. do read finish. they were walking side by side with a grp of gers tagging behind, erm NOT ME! those gers were standing behind me. i jus happen to cut in the queue when gg down the escalator. haha. yeah, side by side okay? not hand in hand aite??? alrite alrite im outta here.
anyway, i feel kinda sad when i think of so many mean gers arnd.erm yah! u know who im refering to now rite?? haha. anyway, not jus her. but many many others. when toking to haoling , i mentioned a ger n she was saying tt ger tt i mentioned okay lets call her A , was nicknamed prostitude by this class of gers in jc. n i was so shocked.
how horrible can human beings get?? after confirmed tt we were toking abt the same ger, i felt so sad for A. she was a really nice , pleasant and sweet ger. and yet, shes called by another grp of gers" prostitute" when they dun even know her.
i used to wonder, does anyone ever think of themselves as evil? does anyone actually stop n think of their actions ? have u guys ever think tt wateva occur harmless to u actually cud have hurt sumone?
i shall not let this entry be cheerful entry. fr my inner soul, let me tell u wat results in this super cheerful me. ive cum across many ppl. who in one wae or another , make sumone else life miserable and they feel proud abt it. oh yes. i think jus like the movie mean gers. but they themselves do not notice tt they make the hell outta sumone.
yes. sum ppl said gossip is a leisure. but pls know ur limits. do not go arnd spreading not knowing the truth. it doesnt make u popular or any better tt u know the latest gossip. another friend of mine, B. yup a ger. it seems like gers have probs like this. why? well, what can i saE? they are jus being gers. (-_-)' tts why i love my own gang of gerfrens n guyfrens who are much more mature and erm heck care??
oh yah back to B. she's a legend. well known since young. heard lotsa bitchy stories abt her , tried not to listen when anyone was very excited abt telling why they dislike her. why? i wanna know her myself. having been thru all these childish acts, i know wat's it like for her. and so, thru coindence, i really get to know her. she was really nice n frenly to me. okay. sum may had bad experiences with her . sum stories may be true. but ever wonder tt a person can change??? why not give her a chance . who knows she's a better person now n yet due to gossip mongers , no one gives her a chance? n yes, it mite be she's just being nice to me but still mean to sum others? in tt case, do i have to be mean to her??? why waste ur time n effort hating a person u dun really know? shudnt we forgive n forget?
when i was in primary 6, i told myself i gotta stay low profile when i go sec sch. okay it failed. but hey. i din go arnd yelling hey!! im XIE MINGYAN!! i wan to be populaR!!! did i?? nope. i didn't. n so, when i entered JC, i told myself agn. low profile this time. n yes! i tot i finally achieved it. cos i knew no one at sch. attended the boring lectures with my long term bf. go to class with my long term fren, kg. time passed quickly n i was so glad JC gonna be over. okay sadly, me n my long term bf broke up. and then i realised there were lotsa rumours abt me. n tts when i realised oh.. im high profile agn??? gosh.... i tot i knew nobody.
kk. my fault agn??? all i did was wake up go sch... bell went off, im off to town or home to take a nap n the routine continued. nope. im not trying to sound pathetic or touch any of ur hearts. my pt is.. there are many ppl who wish to lead a peaceful n simple life. they din want to be popular or make to be popular like sum ppl do. please leave me alone. touch your heart and ask urself. what good have u done by spouting nonsence abt sumone u duno?? to get tt rock outta ur chest?? how situations manage to turn better when u yell back at ur parents?? does it solve the matter??? on the other hand, we hurt our parents when wat seems to be nth to u does matter n seriously hurt them very much.
i rmb once, i was so sick with life n was damn pissed with what my mom said. n so to get it off my chest , i said to her," i will jump off the building for u to see." she went back to her room quietly and i sat on my chair feeling real guilty and held my tears back. and the next dae, my aunt toked to me and reprimanded me. she said tt i hurt my mom badly n stuff n yes i was real guilty abt it even if i may not appear to be.
it's funny how one owas regret after doing sth instead of paying more attention n think abt what they have got to sae or do b4 finally putting them into action. even when cums to making decisions, there are times when we regret abt doing sth or regret not doing sth. n very often we cudnt turn back time. it's okay. it's okay to make mistakes. but make sure u do learn fr ur mistakes.
wateva tt i said is simple to understd. everyones knows tt we shud learn fr our mistakes. but , how many actually did put them into practice? n if everyone is aware of all of the principles of life, why are there still ppl who screw up their life? why aint life perfect and so full of happiess right?
was discussing abt tt with nic jus now and then i told him, if life is perfect n so fair, it wud be too predictable and wud no longer be interesting. and he asked, how can life be perfect in terms of how we can be filled with happiness. and i replied , it happens when we go to heaven. okay, u shud know where the conversation leads to.
wateva it is, happiness to an extent is within ur control. after braving thru so many storms, im one who sees a cup as half filled for sure. and im so glad tt many of my close pals see the same wae too. others' comments used to matter alot. but sumone said to me, the only words tt can hurt u are those tt cums out fr ur loved ones.
and to u christine, yes, i do heard abt 'ur closest pals can be ur worst enemies.' okay. So??? wat's ur point? so u have a prob with me n my close pals now?? strange isn't it? how sum ppl enter ur life and make comments tt suppose to make WOW but it sumhow doesnt go tt wae. and tts why these ppl cum n go. my close pals grew up with me. arguements tt we had, unpleasant encounters etc had all been buried. all i can rmb now is we had all forgiven each other for the wrong doings. and if not cos i have loved them so much, they wud not be able to hurt me.
we had cum such a long wae, almost turning 20 already. i looked back all these yrs, it really felt like ive finally overcum the greatest hurdle. i know more challenges are cumming my way, but im no longer afraid. wat life is it if it's one without Ups n Downs? how wud we notice how nice n kind sum ppl can be without having sum mean ppl arnd?
well, this is life. and we are all leading our lives in different ways. and fr tt "dae" onwards, ive nv use "ending my life" outta anger. and have been very cautious with my words when speaking to my parents for im afraid tt they might end theirs as an easy wae out. we all given one life each. go figure how u wud like to lead urs.
wooo. it's 1.30am now. time to orh orh!! gd night! =P
oh u know what!? while i was waiting for Hl todae, i went down the escalator in PS with TOro fr energy and fiona xie standing right in front of me. hey wait a min! b4 the rumour mongers set out to sell their stories agn. do read finish. they were walking side by side with a grp of gers tagging behind, erm NOT ME! those gers were standing behind me. i jus happen to cut in the queue when gg down the escalator. haha. yeah, side by side okay? not hand in hand aite??? alrite alrite im outta here.
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